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What's up with me, recently I am following through on Plan B by studying marketing at home. I picked up a book called Strategic Marketing by Douglas West, John Ford, and Essam Ibrahim. The book is going pretty well.

I've also applied for Medicaid, so I am waiting for approval so I can fill my perscription, until then, the doctor is giving me samples to hold me over.

I am starting to think about plans for next year. I want to start school this summer and start a part-time job in sales. I want to work to lead the life I used to live, when I was going to school and working. However, I am hesitant about getting the extra income because I don't want disability benefits to be cut. But maybe once I start working, I won't need SSI anymore.

My New Year's resolution is:
  • Pay off school debt in order to get official transcript
  • Start school this summer
  • Work part-time
  • Buy a car
  • Improve credit score
I had an eerie dream the other night, I dreamed I heard voices telling me to go away. It worried me in the dream because I thought that the medication was not working and I remember thinking I need to tell my doctor. Is it normal to dream of hearing of voices? Besides that dream I have not heard any voices or seen anything out of the norm.

What's new in your life? Do you have a New Year's resolution?

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Laura said…
I've had dreams where I've just heard voices and I always found it unnerving. I'm not sure if it's something all people experience or not. p.s. best of luck with your plans
December 9, 2008 at 9:14 PM
Anonymous said…
I haven't heard voices in my dreams but then again you're probably on different medication. I have had very odd dreams though that have nothing to do with what happened during the day just very out of place dreams. Kind of dreams where you wake up and hold that feeling for the rest of hte day?

Anyways, great on your new years resolutions, hope you fulfill them, keep me posted!

mine are:

- read more and watch less tv
- work out more
- worry less about what other people think of me
- go to the cinema more often. I'd forgotten how much I like it!
December 10, 2008 at 5:19 AM
HektikLyfe said…
About the voices, I don't know. Sometimes I think I hear my wife speaking to me or asking me a question but I answer her comment only to see her staring at me in amazement for responding to what she was thinking.

But I haven't heard any voices when she wasn't around.

I would bring it up to your doctor, at least so he can set your mind at ease. Perhaps it is your subconscious remembering what it used to be like?
December 10, 2008 at 1:13 PM
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