Monday, February 13, 2017

My-Love Activities...

I am alone, and not lonely. I’ve been performing different homemade self-love activities to nurture and to love and to pamper myself with a level of contentment of satisfying my own loving demands. 

Last week I created a bulletin board of a collage collective of old greeting cards that my family and friends gave me. I included hand-written notes from friends, and pictures of myself and family.

Today, I researched and printed lyrics of songs that identifies my spirit and self-care needs for right now. I really listened to the music’s words, and not just the tune, and beat; like I usually do. 

These two songs spoke to the essence of my self-care identity, for now...

1)  Monica, “Love All Over Me”

…I got love all over me,
And I don’t want to get it off…
Even my skin is changing,
I’m feeling warmer…
You put the color back in my life...


2)  Tink, “Treat Me Like Somebody”

Somebody real is hard to find,
Somebody worth all your time,
Somebody who can tell you the truth,
Someone who loves you for you,
Someone who knows all of your flaws,
And doesn’t impose,
Try to control them,
Let’s you be free…

These songs are spiritually grounding in that of my Father God, spirit within, and what I need for where I am for …today.


For Valentine’s Day I created a homemade card for myself… what self-care and love acts have you managed, or will do?


In-the-making

Before, brainstorming how to create this Love Day card

After, card complete!

(Inside; Happy Love Day Ash... Ashley, I AM... Vibrant, Lovely & Strong...Thank You Father God!)

Yay!- my Happy Love Day card is finished!!!

I AM STILL…HERE.

I understand how many readers may feel like I left everyone hanging, because I did… my commitment to my employer, my family and parenting, and straight up- my not-up-to-par self-care habits.

It goes back to seasonal coping skills and lifetime coping demands; which I will forever seek balance. Writing in its diverse forms such as journaling and blogging is important to me. My writing is a must for me, to express myself by reflection, connect with others in order to expand my understanding of self and to relate; as well as to better function at a better than average degree on the scale and spectrum of my wellness… I am still here. I am still well. And I am still striving for a good life in my recovery, which forever shifts and changes…still I am me, overcoming my mental health conditions, and life’s uneasiness, and yet, and still; life’s pleasantness, at the same time! 

I love myself because I am learning how to embrace my flaws that I usually aim to remove in thought, fantasy, and word; everything but diligent action of removal…now I am more accepting of myself and my needs, and challenges I may not face immediately, however to address closely by first identifying them, looking at my involvement within them, and being okay to be stuck in that position, for now.

I love you (readers) for checking in on my place online (Overcoming Schizophrenia), and vocalizing the impact of this blog, and of my absence. I appreciate the messages of concern and all the support. I thank each of you... I AM STILL...HERE. Are you?

Me (Ashley) on my laptop, late at night/1 AM-ish thinking about... you (readers)... needing to get this blog off my chest!





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