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My Antidepressant Decision and Update

I decided not to go off my antidepressants. A little while ago I posted a blog entry about my idea to stop taking my antidepressants with my doctor's approval. I said I would wait to discontinue the antidepressants until I met with my doctor... I appreciate your feedback on this important concern.

Recently, I had a disturbing thought cross my mind and tried to erase it by thinking of happy thoughts, which worked, however, it reminded me of how frequent those thoughts were before I was on antidepressants. One major reason why I decided to stay on my antidepressants is because I think this specific medication helps keep my disturbing thoughts at bay. Finally, me and my doctor decided to stay on the antidepressant, but to stay on a lower dose, which satisfies me. I believe I made a wise decision. I will postpone discontinuing my antidepressants for the time being.

Lately, I've upheld a very busy schedule, and I am content with it. For me, having a busy schedule helps me stay focused on my goals because I have to plan most tasks more carefully and to follow a strict agenda.

For additional info on schizophrenia visit:Embracing My Mind, NAMI, Choices in Recovery, and Schizophrenia Society of Nova Scotia (Canada).

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Anonymous said…
I have recently been diagnosed with Diabetes Mellitus.I tried "Self Medicating" earlier in my life with drugs/alcohol through outside suggestion and subconscious and/or emotional thought?After "Cleaning Up" and attempting anti-depressants, I still noticed something was wrong with me? What is/was wrong with me wasn't just the substances and anti-depressants?I have learned that when diabetics ingest substances and/or medicines they experience Metabolic Acidosis...
November 14, 2013 at 1:55 PM
Ashley Smith said…
Hi, thank you for sharing your personal experience. I enjoy hearing from readers. I hope you will continue to read my blog.

Regards,
Ashley Smith
November 15, 2013 at 10:47 PM
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