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Mapping A Way to Satisfaction

I am tired and I have not even started the work I want to do today. I feel both physically and mentally tired. I have so many goals I want to fulfill- I think I should focus on coming up with a plan to get what I want, or map out the baby steps necessary to complete. Despite my stresses, writing is helping me relieve some of the ongoing thoughts and concerns constantly floating around my mind.

Financial stresses is a predominate concern for me, not for the basic necessities, but the means to get more money to satisfy my needs and desires, which will help reduce a lot of the struggle. I envision myself being a superwoman, like my mother was to me, but I just can't get past the hump in my road to success. I wish I could work and get results within a short time frame, have enough energy to balance both work and family, and be very resourceful and able to do what I want to do such as travel to visit family.

I am hopeful that I will accomplish my goals- if I just stick to the plan I will create to save money... I made it this far I might as well keep fighting for what I want because what I want, I will inevitably have, it just takes time and focus.

I already know how I am going to handle accomplishing my goals, now its time to put in the work and to make it happen!

To learn more about schizophrenia visit Embracing My Mind, NAMI, Choices in Recovery, or Schizophrenia Society of Nova Scotia (Canada).

Comments

Momofthree said…
Thank you Ashley! Sometimes I feel overwhelmed with all of the tests I have to study for during exam week ! (Micah-age13-) And I set a goal to get a house on a beach and I keep making small goals to finally reach the big goal! You will reach all of your goals too, and so will my big brother as he continues to improve. You make me feel like I CAN reach my goal!!!! You will TOO!!!!!!!
Sincerely, Micah (1 of my mom's three sons!) Goodnight!
Ashley Smith said…
Thank you Micah, I glad I helped you feel encouraged! Take care.

Ashley Smith

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