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We Got This

I have been declared insane by society. I have been feared. I have been labelled. I have been disappointed by many because of rejection. I lost my mind, twice due to psychosis, but I came back stronger than before. We are not to blame for this illness, nor the stigma that society places on us. I am whole. I am worthy. I am strong. I am better today because of who I am and what I've been through. I have a mental illness, but it does not have me. I will continue to try to overcome. I will continue to aim to cope daily. I will continue to fight in my spirit, in my walk and self-care routine, because I must, in order, to live.

I commend my peers for striving to overcome the fight. The fight against self-stigma. The war within our minds, and the struggles we aim to endure daily. I stand with you not simply in symptoms nor words, but through this fight called life, stigma, and mental illness- the label, the confusion, the pain that we must preserve through every day. Remember this- you are not your mental illness. You are uniquely made. Different from a lot, and blessed like many. You are strong through this struggle. I encourage you to continue to cope as best as YOU can.

WE got this, one step at a time, one push through the weather, another attempt at daily hygiene, medication, leaving the house, getting out of bed, and accepting support from others even though they truly do not understand this battle. Yes, we can. Yes, we will- try again, and again to live through mental illness, life, and everything negative that others and situations put in front of us.
Like the gossip, I will keep moving forward. Like the rejection, I will smile. Like the misunderstanding, I will stand firm. Like the loss, I will live for them. Like the hospitalization, I will continue to keep trying because I must try for me and for me first. I am a priority. I am loved by my God/Goddess. I am uniquely made and powerful. I will get through these trials. I did before. I will again.

Have a GOOD day. We got this!

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